Me: I love this. This is my favorite part though. What are the hearts for?
Cam: The hearts show you how much I love you. 
Me: Oh my gosh, I love it so much.
Cam: Big heart means I love you VERY VERRRRRYY VERRRY much.
Me: I’m so lucky.
Cam: What if I drew X X X X X X and that showed you I love you not very very very much.
Me: That would make me so sad.
Cam: Yeah. And I would say “I love mama not very very much at all.” Then that’s what I would say. But good thing I didn’t do that. 
Me: No, good thing. I think I might be very sad.
Cam: Mhm.
Me: I might cry.
Cam: Uh huh.

Me: Hey Cam, what was your favorite part of the day?
Cam: Mmmmm…I don’t know. I think it was everything!
Me: Everything? That’s a really great day. Did anything really funny happen at school?
Cam: No. Did anything happen at work, when you were going on your computer? 
Me: Oh, that’s a good question. Um, lots of things happened, but nothing fun.

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June 7, 2025 9:20pm

Cam is in bed, and as usual, he tries to stall — delaying sleep as long as possible — by calling me into his room to answer a question.

Cam: What are we doing tomorrow?
Me: Gong Gong is coming over in the morning to have breakfast with us. After that, Gong Gong and I are going to Lodi to visit my mama.
Cam: But she’s dead.
Me: Yeah, she is. There’s a special place where we like to remember her and bring flowers.
Cam: When flowers die they just turn brown.
Me: Mmhmm, and they turn back into the earth.
Cam: They… if you water them more, they turn back to rainbow! And they start blooming again.
Me: That’s so special.
Cam: But people, they don’t work like that.
Me: No, they don’t.
Cam: I wish our bodies could do that, like flowers.
Me: Yeah, I wish they could do that too. That would be really special.
Cam: Yeah… but you will die before me. Because you will get 100 before me. 
Me: Yeah, definitely.